Losing It

Hey People,

Well, this is my second post since being back.  I am getting back into it slowly.  But, thought I would get a quick post in today.  I wanted to ask if anyone had tried hypnosis for weight loss.  I downloaded a video - and I am a major skeptic.  But, I have to tell you.  After watching it once - at the very least - I was in a very deep nice state of relaxation.  I would say - the effect of the message - was that of a motivational speaker.  I mean I only watched it once.  But, I think I would recommend it to a friend.  It was great positive information and super relaxing.  Obviously, the work is still on my shoulders - but, it did kind of reinforce the healthy living.  Reminding me of the feelings I have after a good work out and that I should enjoy and savour and think about every mouthful of food I eat.  Instead of shoveling it down.  My girlfriend thinks I am nuts.  But, like I say at the very least it was super relaxing.  The video I watched was by Paul Mckenna - you can find it on amazon or if you are tech savvy and a jerk like me you can download it somehwere.  Of course I won’t be providing that info.  I think I might actually order some of his other videos.

Other then that.  I spent last night fixing up my bike.  I don’t even know how to fix bikes.  But, I learned how to change the pedals and do some other adjustments.  Which was actually harder then it sounds.  I road my bike to work today - its still pretty chilly out - can’t wait for the nice weather.  Wanna make sure I have all my equipment ready to roll - so, I can be active and healthy.

So, I weighed in as well.  I gained 75% of the weight back I had lost.  I was disappointed but was actually prepared for worse.   Back on the horse, with new an improved goals.  I want to be 10 lbs down in about 4-5 weeks.  Which I think is a realistic goal.  I want to be in better shape when I go home for a visit.

Thats it for now.  Have a good day!

Matt

Hi everyone,

I am back and ready to get back to work. Basically, I went home for almost a month over Christmas and I never really got back on my horse again. Since then I have been eating whatever I want, not working out, and partying. The result is that I think I have gained nearly all of the wait back. I haven’t weighed myself yet -that has to happen very soon.

I want to work towards new goals and try and make them stick this time. I hate when my weight fluctuates - so, I need to think of some way to make it stick this time. I wish I could get inexpensive dietary and exercise advice. I am going to go back to my plan - but, as I do that I am going research programs, and systems, that work for people and can last a lifetime.

I feel lost, beaten, and full of food, but empty all at the same time. I need to get this rolling, I felt so good in Oct, Nov, Dec. Its time to get back there. Its a big step even coming back on here!

So, my last blog was super uplifting and optimistic.  But, I am feeling like I am struggling now with staying on my plan.   I am going to admit to my indiscretions and then get back on track:

- On my worst night I pigged out after going out and had:

- One large wrap (white) w/ peanut butter

- One large wrap (white) w/ 3 eggs

- So, that is about 4 pieces of breads worth of carbs.

- I also had some wine over the weekend

- Last night I went out for dinner with my girlfriend and her brother last night.   I didn’t really want to eat out - but, didn’t have much of a choice.  It was a pizza/pasta place.  So, I had seafood pasta (not cream based) and had whole-wheat noodles.   But, that kind was the icing on the cake - of me slacking off this weekend.

My weigh is on thursday and I just don’t want to gain this week.  I would be happy staying at 180.  I need your support and help.  I am going to head to the gym today and sweat some of this off.

Matt

People! I am succeeding with my goals in most part because of buddyslim and all the great people on here. When I started this journey there is know I could have known that within 7.5 weeks I would be feeling so much better about myself and so close to a level where I feel comfortable in my own skin.

Today I weighed in and I was at 179.7 lbs!! I am calling it 180 obviously, also I want to leave room for success next week! But, in some way I am into the the 170’s or really close anyway. Next week should be my official breakthrough. I feel energized and excited about the prospects of my new healthy lifestyle. I see how I want to improve from here. It goes far beyond dropping weight. I want to get in shape, I want tighten up, I want to make this stick. I dropped this weight a couple of years ago and it came back slowly. I need to avoid that. I don’t want to be the guy that’s weight is constantly fluctuating. I want to feel good and confident all time!

Right, after I weighed myself and saw that I had done well this week. I wanted to go eat a sub, or a bagel with cream cheese. But, avoided that urge ate what I brought and planned to eat. I am saving my indiscretions for the weekend. Or, to get a small popcorn when I go to the show. Packing my lunches has helped so much and just ignoring the urges for a little bit has also helped so much.

I am there right now! I mean I want to improve and get even healthier. But, I am at a point where I really like the way I look and it feels great. It isn’t complicated its just a bit of hard work. Which actually after a while doesn’t even feel like its work. After I workout my mood is elevated the whole day. It just does so many good things for you.

So, I say to you all out there. You can do this. This isn’t complicated. There are some simple equations involved here that need to be followed. And, you need to be patient. But, the level of our success is only determined by us - not anyone else. There are no magic pills or shortcuts. We just need to roll up our sleeves and get down to work. Get addicted to the results, get addicted to the way working out makes you feel. When you feel defeated find a good friend on here and write back each day to each other. They will help you and push to continue when your will power is down. Remember why you started this journey. You sought this website out it didn’t come knocking on your door! Remember, what drove you to this and recommit. Take care of your body the way it deserves to be taking care of - for yourself and your loved ones. We all need to be healthy to ensure we can provide the most love to the people with care about.

Thats it for now. I am feeling really convicted right now - so, I want to push some other people on! You gotta share while you got it!

Matt

I don’t know whats happening to me - but, I can’t seem to bring myself to blog on here the last couple of weeks.  I am still lurking around and reading what everyone is up to.   I am also finding the personal support of sending messages directly to people also really motivating. Having said all that I need to get myself back into using this site and providing support to others - I need to give back a bit a more.

So, where I am at? Well, I couldn’t tell you for sure because it is weigh in day tomorrow.  I hope to either stay the same or have post some weight.  I am not sure if I will loose this week - I have been eating totally fine except for when I ate dinner at a party on Saturday night.  I also went to a movie last night and had a small popcorn.  But, as well all know this is a lifestyle and we need to make it work within the realities of our lives.  I have been working out really hard - I have been going at least 4/5 workdays and last week I went all 5.   So, cross your fingers for me and hope that I have some good success.

My girlfriend who is away at teachers college (bachelor of Education) is coming to visit on Saturday for two weeks.  I am really excited we haven’t seen each other in about 9 weeks.  This is the longest we have gone - we have tried to make it a monthly visit.   This will only go on for a year total and it has already been  4 months.  I am think she is going to be shocked by my results.  Its amazing how much of a difference 17 lbs makes.  I think its not just about the lbs … its about the working out which is changing the composition of your weight.  There is a big difference between being thin and fit/buff.   I am trying to work towards being fit.

Other then that - need to get down to work.  Going to go to the gym later and make sure to go into my weigh in tomorrow in the best possible condition.

Matt

Howdy Folks!  Happy thanksgiving - although, up here in Canada that took place in October.  Enjoy the turkey and if you must make it a small peace of pumpkin pie.

So, as some of you may know I have been struggling lately to keep myself on track.  Here, is th thing - Last week when I felt like I was really working my butt off I stayed the same.  This week I worked out super hard but I actually had some indiscretions on the weekend and lost 3 lbs!  Yes, that right thats bring me down to 183 lbs.  I have met my mini goal!! And puts some more gas in the tank to motivate me to keep on going.  I think I would have been crushed if I gained this week.  I am getting in such good shape.  Not just loosing weight - I am actually getting into good shape which is awesome.  I think these habits are going to stay with me for a long time and help me keep the weight off.  I think I am going to revise my weight loss goal to be 175 lbs.   I am not going to stop there but I feel like I might be too skinny at 170 lbs - but, we will see when I get there.  That will be a good problem to have.

I also wanted to give a special shout out to my buddy Lori.  She has really been there for me.  Even when I didn’t blog the last few days - she has been messaging me everyday to see how I am.  I can say for sure twice she has kept me from falling off the wagon.

I want to also thank everyone for the great advice and support and time they have put into read and commenting on my blog.

Have a great day! I know am

Well.  I guess it time tor turn myself in.  I have been AWOL for four days from buddyslim.  I am feeling totally unmotivated and  weak in terms of resolve.

This weekend.  I ate some popcorn at the movies, some peanuts (way more then a serving) at the football game, and then went out for a meal.  The meal I ate out was salmon and risotto - but, there is no way that this was healthy - it would have had cream and such - not exactly lean cuisine.

Now, its monday.  I am feeling really lazy about making it the gym.  I just don’t feel motivated.  But, I am also dreading the scale on thursday.  I think I may actually gain this week - lets just say I wouldn’t be surprised.

I don’t need its ok, we all go through this.  I need to get my butt kicked.  I am sucking out when the going gets tough.  I was on a such a roll and now I am faltering.

Hey everyone,

So I weighed in today and I weighed like 186 min 1/4 of lb… and last week I was like 186 plus 1/4 of lb - so, at most I lost 1/2 lb and worst I stayed the same.  It really sucks so - I was hoping for some more motivating results - but, I knew this would be hard work when I started out.

This week I worked at least as much or maybe more - so, I don’t think it was for lack of exercise.  I haven’t been drinking as much water, I have been eating a bit more peanut butter, banana, and whole wheat bread.  I have also been drinking more diet drinks which I heard with some people the chemicals can inhibit weight loss ( who knows).  I haven’t been eating breakfast as religiously.  I feel like my past successes led me to believe I could cheat a bit. The moral of the story is if I was trying to maintain this would be great.  But, I am not trying to maintain.  I am trying to loose.  I want so badly to be in the 170s.  I really wanted to be there in a couple of weeks.  Its time to pull myself together and do this.  Its hard going into the weekend on a let down like this - but, some how I need to turn this into motivation.  I would really appreciate any comments or suggestions or words of comfort.  I know I have been working out hard so it is possible I lost inches and not lbs.

I need to figure out a way to turn this into a positive - not a negative.   Perhaps, this is the reality check to get me back on the eating plan tight - before I slide.

Matt

Hey Everyone,

I hope this message finds you well.  I just got back from the gym.  I did 28 mins on the elliptical and 10 mins on the bike.  And, damn I feel good!  I am starting to crave this feeling which is the positive reinforcement I need to get back at it each day.

Tomorrow is weigh day.  I hope it is a good one.  Although, I know I have been working hard and am doing most of the right things - so, it will be ok if it doesn’t move - but, man I really hope it does!

The Toronto Raptors playing tonight in the NBA.  If any of your readers are from Utah… sorry but Toronto are going to kick the Jazz’s butts.  So, thats the plan for tonight.  Attend a wind up for one of my intramural sports teams and then head home to make dinner and watch the basketball game.

Then I hope to get to bed at a decent hour tomorrow - because, I have lot to do at work.  Then tomorrow night I am going with my girlfriend’s brother to a concert at little hole in the wall bar/club.  So, although, I try and reserve this stuff for the weekend - it should be fun.  And, my weak side really wants to go out and have some fun.  That doesn’t mean I will blowing off the healthy living - don’t worry.

Hope this finds you all well and healthy!!!!

So, I made it to the gym this morning.  I have decided I am going to try and push my cardio up to 40 mins from a 1/2 hour.  Today I made it to 36 mins and burned a whopping 570 cals!  So, I plan to try and bush it to 40 mins tomorrow.  The machines can only be booked for 1/2 hour so I need to get lucky and hope no one one wants the machine.  The other trick is to find a vacant machine and start my 1/2 hour earlier.  I will figure it out.

I had some yummy marlin last night with a tasty stir fry.  Tons of veggies and it was so good.  I had a banana for my late night snack.  Which, at this point is a treat for me.  I watched 1/2 a movie and then made myself go to sleep.  Which was great - because, I was actually able to get up on time this morning to go the gym etc…  Tonight, we have a playoff game in our innertube waterpolo league - its at 11 pm - so, that will really throw a wrench into my plans tomorrow.  Looks like I will need to move my workout into the afternoon.  So, I can catch an extra hour of sleep.  I also have a haircut booked for 6:15 today - which, should be great.  Gotta take care of myself now that  I am getting into shape!

Need to get a lot done over the next few days in terms of my project.  I have some scan time booked to test out my new code.  Going to collect some images and need to report my progress to my boss on Friday.  So, the progress in the next few days will be very important.

Other then that, I watched a bunch of movies this weekend.

1) Sideways   - this one was great, I will recommend it.

2) Death at a Funeral -  This was hilarious and relative clean - you’ll love it.

3) Shooter  - Boys movie.

4) Constant Gardner - Really great , I recommend this one as well.

Thats it for now folks. Have a great day!

Matt